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(no subject) [Sep. 24th, 2005|01:21 am]
so tonight I went to the jeweler for get my ring size.and Im 59 90 for france.not the same as US I will have to convert it soon.after I went to eat a kebad with yohan buy smokes and rent a movie. the movie was saint ange. it was kind of strange I don't get all in this movie and that was long. on the way back the cops told me to stop. only one of my light is working my insurance is out of time. I have to fix all that or I will get bigger trouble the next time. I came home I get a TAshia like fury bitching at me for some reason . I never wrote body or table in one of my mail but well.
Im kind of tired of this during some days she just bitch at me and after she is nice and the next day she bitch at me. it's always like that. I hope that Ill get used too cause I love you tashia I don't want to loose you.
Im going to sleep maybe that will be better tomorrow.
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(no subject) [Apr. 9th, 2005|01:49 am]
[mood |anxiousanxious]

please love get back soon I can't sleep without news of you. and I can't stop to imagine the worst.
please come back I miss you and feel so lonely. I want to know if all is ok if you will not stay there cause you have nowhere to go. I'm affraid love.
please come back.

Please wake up
It's so dark and cold
Please wake up
I feel so alone
And I feel so scared
That you're going away
And I feel so scared...

All I want is summer
Stories from before
Just like the day you tried to hide
Behind the churchyard wall
And fell asleep before I came...

I found you
In a chain of flowers
Sleeping like a marble girl
Sleeping in another world...

I'll never tell you
Of all the different ways
You make me so afraid...
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(no subject) [Apr. 5th, 2005|10:52 pm]
[mood |depressed go back my love]
[music |cry in the wind]

it's 22.52 and tashia is gone because randy was coming home for destroy all the things he is maybe drunk and angry. so she left the house and she have nowhere to go for now I hope they will be fine I know they will but I am here imagining the worst things about her and azzy and matt and there mom. I will try to stay awake I have news from her. fuck. I hope she will get her guitar. she was so scared and cry and cry and I was here in front of my computer and do nothing because words can't help this time. at least she promise me to don't go with cockface and I trust her she wont.I hope they will be back at there home for takes things they want and for get another place to go.
and one more time I can't help. like always this distance in really starting to breaking my heart.like never before.

please come back my heart
don't be afraid things will be okay
I love you
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(no subject) [Apr. 4th, 2005|02:31 am]
[mood |depresseddepressed like always]
[music |fuck music]

tonight was the night of tears like each time I smoke. I said to tash I would stop and I have somke again even if it was nothing I does and like always a fight have start.
I feel realy bad when we fight like she don't loves me anymore and that hurt so much . I cazn't think to leave without her. but tonight she was so mad at me and saying nothing just forget me and talk with someone else.
I feel like a big shit.
fuck that. fuck this distance fuck the bank fuck pot fuck jobs fuck me fuck yohan fuck everything.
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survey [Apr. 1st, 2005|11:15 am]
[mood |coldcold]
[music |gary numan]

Do you wear black eyeliner?: yes I do
How much black clothing do you own?: a lot
Do you think about death often?: mhm
Do you want to die?: I used to but not anymore
Are you a social outcast: I try
Are you pale?: no but I love my white tashia
Do you cut school?: unfortunatly yes
Do you like Hot Topic? yes some stuff are cool not all but some yes

--Skater Punk--
Can you skateboard?: hahaha no
How often do you wear skating shoes?: I'm actualy wearing a pair of black vans
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: yes we never stop
How much do you get in trouble?:as I can lol
Do you listen to the bands who are considered posers?: I don't realy like new punk music but yes I do
How many piercings do you have?: ooooo

Is your hair long?: nope
Are you a vegetarian?: nope
Do you own a tye dye shirt?: when I was young I stole my mom shirt haha
Do you want peace?: of course
Do you want to save the animals?: yes
What do you think about war?: ...........................
Have you ever made a peace sign with your two fingers?: everyday but I make a lot of fuck too sooo it's nothing I always speack with my hand unfortunatly I'm italian.

Are you from the ghetto?: unfortunatly yes I am. my parents had a little bar in the suburbs of paris so you imagine the rest.
Do you own "bling bling"?: haha yes I own bling bling
What do you think about do-rags?: sorry I'm french can you translate ?
Do you like rap?: some yes
How about hip-hop?: some yes my friend yohan love hip hop
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world? NOPE Tupac is just tragicly dead that's all
What do you think about afros?: it depend
Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: no

Is life a party?:no life is life
How often do you get drunk?: not a lot but I drink maybe once a week
Do you care about your grades?: no
Do you need attitude adjustment?: yes yes shut up you fucking survey !
Do you wear brand-name stuff?: not a lot I have stop that since I have 17 years old
How often do you cry?: a lot
Do you have a bad experience with an ex?: can I pass
Do you have an acoustic guitar?: yayayayay she is bad but yes I have one
Are you emotional?: of course I'm a girlyman
Do you like soft music?: mhm exactly
Do people understand you?: some of them yes
Do you write your own songs?: I try but it sucks
Is your hair dyed dark?: yes
Do you wear plastic-framed glasses?: no
Do you listen to music that makes you cry?: it's my favorite music
Do you blog about your personal life in great detail?: not on every details

Do you play any sports?: I used to be sportive (rugby ping pong volley ball badminton judo jujitsu swiming pool bike I used to ride my motorbike in the forest) not anymore
How important are they to you?: not important
How important is your reputation?: I don't care
Do you pick on the geeky kids?: no geeky kids are cool (two of my best friends are geeky kids)
What do you think about football?: I only wear a redskins jackets cause it's a present.
Are you considered a bully by anyone?:I used too

Do you wear glasses?: nope
Are you smart?: I think yes
Do you use an inhaler?: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah i'm a tease
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?: no
Does your mom buy your clothes?: no just make me presents
Are you on the computer alot?: everyday
Do you get picked on: don't understand this question sorry

_/*_The Usual_/*_

Name: alexandre
Middle Name: marcel raymond
Age: 20
Age you look: 20
Birthday: 25 august 1984
Astrological Sign: Virgo and for chiness I' m a rat
Are you a good match for that sign?: I think yes
Marital Status: I have an american girlfriend that I loveeee so muchhh
Hair color: it depend I had blue green grey brown purple red blond but I'm dark hair
Natural hair color: dark
Eye color: Always changing between green and brown
Glasses or Contacts?: none
Height: 187 cm
Tall or Short?: tall
Shoe size: mmm for france it's 46 47 for us it's 12
Skin tone: I'm a gipsy lol
Haircut: wow I have never find a good hair cut for me
Double jointed anywhere?: don't understand
Blood Type: A+


food:I don't know
Movie(s): I don't know
vegetable: I don't know
fruit: apple
book(s):I don't know
clothing color: black
music: the cure placebo indichine Saez orgy cali starsailor ours U2 vast BOWIE cranberries and a lot
song: I always change I'm listening to dead heaven of gry numan right now
quote: I don't understand
boy name: I don't care
girl name: natashia cause it rocks
country other than America: for now I live in France and I like australia canada africa I like the world in fact.
brand of jeans: I don't have
religion: none I still searching
play: don't understand
musical: I hate musical
person to talk to on the phone with: I don't like phone but yes I agree that i love talk to tashia cause she have a beautiful voice.
candy: I don't know I prefere chocolat
treat you rarely get: money and sex "what a poor life ... lol"
place to be: I don't know anywhere with tashia
season: summer
smell: the rain tashia"s skin
month: I don't care
year: 2005. This is going to be a good year for me I think
day of the week: I don't care either
thing in your room: too many things but an hifi one electric guitar one acoustic and 2 others but they are brokens sad. a computer a big bed and my lazzy ass.
room in the house: bedroom
holiday: summer
famous person: my girlfriend and her daughter and my family and my friend
author: baudelaire
type of story:
type of movie:
body part: eyes tongue ARMS tits
sport to watch:none


What's the time?: 11.05 am
What are you doing? (other than this survey): waiting to call bck again for the job
Do you like to chat?: only with my friend
How many close friends do you have on the net?: 4
have you ever met anyone famous?: a few people yeah
If so, who?: french actors
do you like the city life? not at all
do you wish you were older?: no
Any babies in the family?: not yet but soon
Who's the youngest person you know?: little azzy
Do you like to write?: no I can't
What is your worst habit?: finger in nioze
Your best habit?: masturbation ? lol
Are you popular in school?: I was popular cause I was alone mdr
Do you like to socialize?: not at all
Do you write music?: yes i try
Where is the best state to be in?: home
Do you like to tell people about you?: if they ask, I'll tell

_/-_Opinion On_/-_
scary movies: yes
books into movies: yes
comedy: of course
dancing:in the shower or in my room
parties: yes
cloning: it scares me
school: yes
america: I love america...and I hate it...
extinct animals: Aww, poor things
money: need some
friends: cool
religion: I don't like so much but I don't hate but some are dumb ok I shut up I will have trouble with a lot of people
television: no
internet: all the day
pets: I love them
famous people: I don't care I will be famous
sun: it make my noze bleed
astronomy: very nice
death: shit happens..and it sucks
Friday: day of fish ewww
stealing: yes
Australia: I like australia
essays: it's cool
reports: ????????
laws: important ..............................and .....again
church: don't go
ghost stories: I saw one as a kid why do you call me crazy ? it's true
blogs/ since a few month yes
children: they are cool
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every saga have a beggining. [Mar. 26th, 2005|03:09 am]
[mood |amusedamused]
[music |ours]

beggining of a great story. awwwwwwww I miss you candygirl

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brother [Mar. 25th, 2005|11:36 am]
[mood |bitchyrrrrrrrrr]

this morning I had to drive my brother at school so I have left at 7 and drink a coffee and then I ear my brother said to my mom : no I don't want him to drive me I can go alone with the bus.but my mom wanted me to drive him he wasen't egree with that so he have escape through the forest so I have put my shoes and run after him " thanks ben to make me run in the forest at 7 am when I just wake " and now he is here watching tv downstairs. we realy don't know what to do with him cause he have to go to school or we will be in trouble. fuck.
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(no subject) [Mar. 24th, 2005|01:20 am]
[mood |tiredfucking tired]
[music |indochine she night]

today has been a normal day I'm proud of me I wake up early at 8 ( I know it's not really early but it is for me )
and after I have look for job cause the girl from the pottery had call me sunday for tell me I haven't this job.
so I have look a job in a supermarket and the boss's name was MR salle wit han accent on the e ; but I trust it was just MR salle what means mr dirty so I call him mr dirty and he tell me I was wrong and then 1 second of big silence and EXPLOSION I have laugh so hard at him. it was so funny but I think I can make a cross on the job lol .
I have make a guitar improvisation too it was not too bad.
and then I have talk to my love for the rest of the day it was good we had fun we have play checkers on MSN and we have bet and unfortunately I have LOOSE. so she had her present lol it was funny she told me I had made the cute face and she almost die . mdr I can see butterflies in my room now. :-)
now I'm tired so i go to bed it's already 01 28 am . I always go sleep late in this moment.
I love you my angel.

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work [Mar. 17th, 2005|09:05 am]
[mood |indescribableindescribable]
[music |I'll catch you -natashia]

soo today it's my first day on work since aproximatly 10 mounths. and III feel strange ( everyone know this feeling I'm sure ) I realy don't know what I will do there. clean I'm sure but maybe others things I DUNNO. will see
I will leave in 20 min just time for me to listen all the songs tashia have records because I will miss her today so very much. ' thanks love to have a beautiful voice and to be so smart and talented.
je t'aime de tout mon coeur.
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simply upload [Mar. 12th, 2005|01:30 am]
[mood |tireda bit tired but in love]
[music |MUSE citizen Erased]

soooo I don't know what to update today but it's been a while I haven't write somethings so I do.
I haven't get the nigh job it's sad but like tashia said I will get one soon. I hope because I can't wait to see her again.
tonight it's almost 02 am and I don't sleep . I just listen music and talking with tashia we are reminded our memories together and it make her cry so guess what ? It make me cry too. but it's it's love tears no pain. because I know I have her and it's all matter.
ok I stop I can't write more.

ps . I laught again in my head about azzy and her nonononon mooving her head.
and Azzy is walking !!! such a great new she is so intelingent and smart and cuuute. azzy I love your mom and I love you. ( different kind of love but still )

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