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[Mar. 1st, 2006|04:30 pm]
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[music |nick cave : do you love me ?]

Well. Since Im back in france I've look for job but I had no luck cause each time I apply it was a NO. even at this fucking Mac Donald's where they had 6 fucking places. But no I feel like people think Im dumb or something that Im a freack.
I ve call the work agency and stuff but Im waiting for papers and then I will have an apointment.
the 9 march I have a rendez-vous for a job. it will be for deliver phone book. Im sure there will be a lot of people asking for the job but I will do my best one again. hopefully it will be ok cause Im realy tire that people think Im a good for nothing.
Tash isn't in a good mood and I have to say that me either. she don't sleep and other stuff that I wont explain here.
Today I asked if I could see her and Azzy on the Webcam but I had a freacking NO ! me her future husband a NO ! she said that she was feeling like shit and fat and stuff. and I ve told her that Ididn't care cause I wont stop love her for that. I just miss her and all I can have is the cam but no I couldn't she don't wanted. she said that I didn't understand why.. well maybe I don't but it hurt me like a bitch tjat I couldn't even see her what am I suposed to think ? well I don't know.

and then after we had a fight cause we were both upset and mad. I told her that I loved her still but I don't know if she believe it and it hurt more than anithing. she finaly said that she loved me but I wonder if it was just formeto let her go.

Well Im sorry and I love you

[User Picture]From: mistresskiya
2006-03-02 02:15 am (UTC)
You know I love you, but you also know I have a lot going on right now,and I'm really scared love. I'm sorry I'm a bitch sometimes
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[User Picture]From: mistresskiya
2006-03-27 02:51 am (UTC)
Well love, last message of the day I promise, and depending on where you go first, you might still have to go to my journal. I wasn't sure which you'd read last. So two LJ. But I miss you, I always miss you. I feel so lonely and so cold without you. But I keep dreaming of the day that we'll be together again. Husband and wife, mom, dad, and daughter. We miss you so much. and we both love you, we ALL love you, kitties too. Can't wait for you to get home. Now off to work you go and we'll be here when you get back.
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