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(no subject) [Mar. 31st, 2006|08:18 am]
[mood |sleepytryingto wake up]
[music |starsailor - get out while you can]

it's been a long long time that I haven't upload my journal soooo I think it's time to.
first I have find a job that's cool. I'm working since 3 weeks now at the holiday camp of " IVRY " in the suburb of paris.
I'mnot actually working in paris it's just that the Camp belong to them so noly kids from paris came here to see our pretty country side. I'm a washer but I do a lot of other stuff too like cleaning helping the cook and helping all the otehr people. my contract will be over in end of june but I hope I can leave before so I can go home with my 2 babies.

I'm still waiting for the phone call from the ambasade. which shouls take less than 60 days now. I realy hope cause I miss you so much sweety and the little azzy muffin too.

My brother Benjamin is still not going to school he just do nothing and that bugs me. he talks realy badly to us too he treats us like shit and he is still smoking I don't care that he smoke cigarets when I was his age I start smoking too but he is smoking something else ( we all know what is it) and that it not helping him at all, it only make things worse.

I'm also realy tired of being woke up by my mom and Alain making "their affair" in the middle of the night when it hapend I just want to punch them it's for tell.

paycheck is in 25 days now yay it's getting close. I'm in trouble with the bank too it's why I can't touch my account until I get my paycheck but yay my mom bought me a pack of cigaret that's nice.
and that's all I can think of for now.

I miss you baby I hope I'll be home soon. je t'aime tres tres tres fort. bisous.

( my keyboard is nasty ewww need to clean it )
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(no subject) [Mar. 1st, 2006|04:30 pm]
[mood |confusedconfused]
[music |nick cave : do you love me ?]

Well. Since Im back in france I've look for job but I had no luck cause each time I apply it was a NO. even at this fucking Mac Donald's where they had 6 fucking places. But no I feel like people think Im dumb or something that Im a freack.
I ve call the work agency and stuff but Im waiting for papers and then I will have an apointment.
the 9 march I have a rendez-vous for a job. it will be for deliver phone book. Im sure there will be a lot of people asking for the job but I will do my best one again. hopefully it will be ok cause Im realy tire that people think Im a good for nothing.
Tash isn't in a good mood and I have to say that me either. she don't sleep and other stuff that I wont explain here.
Today I asked if I could see her and Azzy on the Webcam but I had a freacking NO ! me her future husband a NO ! she said that she was feeling like shit and fat and stuff. and I ve told her that Ididn't care cause I wont stop love her for that. I just miss her and all I can have is the cam but no I couldn't she don't wanted. she said that I didn't understand why.. well maybe I don't but it hurt me like a bitch tjat I couldn't even see her what am I suposed to think ? well I don't know.

and then after we had a fight cause we were both upset and mad. I told her that I loved her still but I don't know if she believe it and it hurt more than anithing. she finaly said that she loved me but I wonder if it was just formeto let her go.

Well Im sorry and I love you
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(no subject) [Feb. 11th, 2006|11:57 am]
honey I don't know if anyone can receive mu message from MSN so if you haven't receive mess from me or ig I don't awnser message me on AIM cause Im on. je t'aime sorry for yesterday I was an ass.
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(no subject) [Feb. 4th, 2006|05:56 pm]
[mood |boredbored]

so Im back in france....I don't realy know for how long I have to be here but I hope it will be short cause I miss my family so much. I miss seeing the muffin playing around, I miss my Natachia sleeping with her watching movie with her jocking I miss everything.
Im waiting to find a job too that suck I ve seen nothing so far.
and that is all for now. not a lot of news I know.
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(no subject) [Dec. 19th, 2005|08:57 am]
[music |indochine feat brian molko- pink water 2]

this song is killing an arab played in New-York during the show of the 11 08 198.
for this one robert sing killing everyone else in the world.


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(no subject) [Oct. 30th, 2005|02:40 pm]
[mood |calmcalm]
[music |depeche mode-vibrator]

You're the Chatterer. As Pinhead's second in
command, you enjoy the tiny smidgen of power he
indulges you with (like letting you get a
make-over in HR2). But what you enjoy most is
wandering the corridors of hell, looking for
someone to 'play' with. And of course, if you
can't find anyone, you never feel too alone.
There's always the chattering of your teeth to
keep you company.

Which Cenobite are you? (includes pictures)
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(no subject) [Oct. 25th, 2005|09:46 am]
[mood |thirstythirsty]
[music |a song by linkin park]

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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(no subject) [Oct. 6th, 2005|10:01 am]
this morning I ve been woke up by some yelling. my mom and my bother had a rendez-vous to my brother school and as usual my brother don't wanted to go. what's new ??
so I came downstairs and try to tell my brother to go bla bla bla he still don't wanted to. so I took him by force out of his room for make him realize that he didn't make the law in our house. he was still the same. and what's happened ?? Alain cames and start to beat the shit out of him. fucker he have no right to punch him like that and my mom was crying trying to stop him but he didn't. so I stopped him he almost beat me too but he didn't. 5 min after he start again so I push him and he fall on the floor. he was so mad. I don't care he can be mad but it's my brother and even if it's a jerk nobody can beat him like that it's only a kid he is 14. again an happy day.
they finally went to the rendez-vous.

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(no subject) [Oct. 4th, 2005|02:50 pm]
[mood |boredbored]
[music |DISINTEGRATED- Tribute to the cure]

wanted to upgrade my journal.
sooo Im done with work my contract end the 30 septembre... and now Im waiting for my paycheck come this week I hope. I think it will be around 1000 € it will be a little more. so that's enought to pay my plane ticket. I will save 700 on my saving acount so Ill sure to keep them for the plane.
my 2 babys are sick... Azzy Muffin have an ear infection in both of her ears that kindo suck cause that make her dizzy and she puke and scream and never sleep. it seems that she's felling better now. But my second baby is sick too.we don't know what she have but I think it's a strep and the flu. she need to see the doc but she can't for now cause of work....that make me worry a lot. I don't want her to be much hurt that she is right now.
and me ... I ve upload a ditry place series on deviant art. Im kind of happy with it.
nothing much to say and it's the piggy wake up time.
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yayayaya [Sep. 28th, 2005|02:22 pm]
[mood |bouncybouncy]

oooo Im happy I was on my way to work this morning and the radio was playing Californication of the Red Hot and I was like ok you guys of the radio would you play something new please??? and OMFG I think they heard me cause they played....."Suspence" tatatata all the drums stuff .........THE FUCKING NEW SINGLE OF INDOCHINE !!!!!!!! god I was so happy at work. hehe it was just for say that.

love you.
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